“My wish for you is that you continue. Continue to be who and how you are, to astonish a mean world with your acts of kindness. Continue to allow humor to lighten the burden of your tender heart.”
I truly believe that our souls have a clear intention for coming into this world. I also believe that we choose the people we need in order to achieve our purpose, we choose our family.
When I found out that I was pregnant I couldn’t stop crying. I never wanted to be a mother, I thought I wasn’t mature enough to raise a baby. I felt disorientated and out of control, my life was taking a direction I certainly wasn’t ready for. Deep inside I knew that my heart was going to belong to someone else, and my life as I knew it was never going to be the same.
And then I heard my baby’s heartbeat for the first time, wishing that it was a boy, I was afraid of having a girl that will feel insecure or have less opportunities just for being a woman. The doctor said “it’s a girl”, I wasn’t expecting to cry or get as emotional as I did, but I was in complete awe. That day I understood that I needed to become a stronger woman in order to raise a strong girl. Without her I wouldn’t found myself, wouldn’t found my inner strength.
She wasn’t planned but she was conceived in the most beautiful island I’ve seen, Xolbox Mexico. It was a day full of love, we were having the time of our lives celebrating my best friend’s wedding.
Regina was born on my best friend’s birthday, July 8th. I truly believe she choose us, she wanted to come to this world and she made it happen in her own perfect timing. She even choose the people she wanted at the hospital the day she was born, we had amazing friends who helped us throughout the whole process. Across the universe was playing in the room when she came out of me, I fell in love with her and our journey ahead.
Mi Corazón, I can honestly say that being your mother has made my world a much better place. As young as you are, you had taught me so much about patience, compassion, and love. You’ve showed me so much love that I’ve learned to love myself much more, seeing me through your eyes has given my existence a different sense. You are a warrior, a princess, mermaid, doctor, police, cat, a puppy, but specially you are you, and that is exactly what you came to do. You have demonstrated me that having a girl is the best thing! Thank you for making me more conscious of my actions and decisions, thanks for being my teacher, my friend, and for choosing me as your mother. I will make sure that everyday you feel loved and understood. You are my blackbird and I will help you fly. You and me.